CM2, by counter magic (2024)

1.

shut upi dont deserve your loveim just a stupid narcissisticchumpi cant accept these wordsi cant no matter how much it will hurtim evil, worthless, sex obsessed im paranoid and so depressedso think again before you waste your timeim jealous, dying, close to cryingswear to god im sick of tryingplease just let it go just turn awayim nothing, nowherein my headaddicted to the internetso please spare me thepain of seeing you get sick of meand leaving

2.

i heart mario karti used to play with the boys after schoolor golden eye on 64 eating pizza and smoking dujourthats the best itsever gonna getno reason to grow upholding your breathwe didn't know how good we had ittil we got intocollege, and thenwriting papers, studyingmaking works of artbut nothing measures upagainst the weight in your heartwe used to do sh*twe used to rock and rollnow its 9 to 5and down bad radiothats the best itseveer gonna getno reason to grow upholding your breathwe didnt know howgood we had it til yougraduate and then you die

3.

every now and then I feel vibrations in my handsi can't believe how sick i am of seeing my reflection in the screenthere's something weird inside my brain I feel alone i can't explaini can't believe how bad i feel when i see all my friends are doing greatsimulations pull me deeper just like thoughts of distantconversations begging to be saved from all the pain as theydecayexpectations drift into the pulsing blades of squarewave oscillations frequencies increase until their sighing makes a songevery now and then i start to hate my only friendsi have to look away i have to cull the breeding pain inside my hearti grab a drum machine and pickup my guitarand make the most pathetic song i've ever made so far

4.

i wish i lived in a world wheresoftware was just a soft thing you wearand i wish that the web was just a thing between your eyes and your skulland i wish that video games were justa scathing insultand i wish that a computer was justa piece of glass on my walland i wish that i could saythat i need you, love you,want to f*ck youi gotta let it outi gotta tell you nowthat i need you so muchi'd never go online againif you so much as take my handtell me that im yoursi wish i lived in a world wherecharm was just numbers on a screenand i wish that i got a level upevery time i felt like i wanted to dieand i wish that loneliness was anearly game boss, weak against lightningand i wish that i could just click a buttonthat cries out, "i like you"

5.

im making a movie about myselfif you want a partthat would be swellwe start shootingsometime soonjust waiting on the cameraand the tv crewyou'll have a seatat the big premiereyou'll meet the jacksonsthey'll all be thereyou can turn to meat the final cueyou can say its charming but kinda blueill say its so chicill say its artyou want a happy endingyou expected morebut love is on the cutting room floori don't need a characterto get in the wayleave a lot of loose endswhen they run awayi don't need a story with a meaningless roleif you want to leaveleave before we rolland i don't understand the appeal of lovedon't make me crythat ain't no funcause im the onewhos living the sceneso write the scriptand be nice to meill direct your lifewe'll get a real good takeyou'll be out of focusbut you'll feel okand when you sighill cut awayi won't your heart break

6.

why can't ijust rewindto those days whenyou were onlinemisery pleasemessage meplease log oni miss youjanuary came and went andall my emails went unread sof my inboxf my lifei can't go onthis isn't righti cant go on

7.

i think its coolthat im on my owni always dreamtof being alonewhy should i envywhat i cannot havefriends and love and having funwhy should i care about thatwhy should i care that icant live all my dreamswhy should i noticei feel incompleteone, two, three, fouri love to feel forgottenand i think its pretty coolto be totally aloneand i love to spend all day on the computernot knowing what the hell im doing with myselfand i love having no one to talk tolike everand i think its pretty cool to lie abouthow you're doing to everyone you knowAnd i love that i already know that they don't careand they never willall i need is myselfwhy should i carewhy should i noticeill never care

8.

its hot as a bitchits 115 out hereall i need is a hat and a co*ke and asmoke and ill be feelingreal cool

9.

you can't do what your friends do you can only bide your time and watch them from behindyou can't jam with the cool kidsyou can only stand aside and watch them have funbut i should have much more to givethere's a place in that world waiting for meand i should have much more to givethere's a sound inside of me waiting to scream

10.

food grade chemicals soothe my soulbut gas can neverfill this gapinghole inside myheartAFKDon't even know what game to playim living like a zombiei have nothing in my brainbe cooli don't know where to starti'll always be a loserhuffing gas inside my carand i don't know how to get my life on trackcan't do anything with this pain on my backand i could never be your only oneeverybodys got someone but meim just a foolgoblin modei long for the days of oldwith magic, dragons, elven landstake me anywhere but where i amwaking up spells certain doomdoomed to just hit whip itsall alone inside my roomand ill never say i miss you because inever even had to guts to catch your eyeand ill never see the sorrows go awayeverybody knows that im insane

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if friends with meyou wish to beyou first must answermy riddles threeonehow are youare you doing alrightare you still in schoolhave you met a girl whos nicetwodo you think you carehow things turn outwill you ever regretletting everyone downthreewill it ever get betterwill you ever feel okwill happiness ever just be another dayfour fivesixseveneightnineten years later and you're still in bedwake uplet's get this breadi think not im too tiredjust pretend im deadi'll close my eyesand fantasizea different placea different timewhere im much morethan the man i amand every little hang-updoesn't feel like the end

12.

when i look at youi feel how i wanna bedoing nothing newmakes me feel diseasedtractor soles on the ricksicedrop tearstake my f*cking handplease take me out of hereim a gargoyle slim silhouette in the lamp oilslab on my hip keeps me anchored to the soilif i go off i might float off, disappear if i go off i might float off, disappeari know now why i shaved my headleaving shadows in the streetsbloody sky yeah thats redyou know i care for youyou're all i seeexcept when the tablecomes between you and me

13.

we got nothing in commonyou're a princess and im a goblinyou're in the towerim in the dungeonyou're reading poetryim stealing crutonsyou're making muffinsim making xanaxyou're eating popsiclesim eating ratsi eat ratsmaybe she willlook my wayon judgement dayand she will playmy goblin gameswe will have so much funbut until thenim just a goblinwith a gun

14.

more than pheromones i like you for who you arei love smell of girlwhen shes doing something she lovesand i couldn't know you betterlike i know youand you could like me betterlike i like you

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maybe im a libramaybe just dumbor just cant standthat i need someonei could never saythat i need you nowinhibitions alwaysbring me downi think too muchand i love too muchand when i think of youi hurt too muchi want to cryim about to breaki want to touch youbut im so afraidi always get f*cked upwhen it comes to youi dont think i can treat youthe way i want toi need someoneand it feels like hellif the feelings fadethats just as wellbecause im not cooland im so damn weakand ill probably only carefor a few more weeksthen ill forgetand my pain will ceaseand pretty sooni wont even know your facei get so f*cking downi f*cking hate itjust a living scarinfatuatedtry so f*cking hardto f*cking say itgrab this stupid heartand f*cking break it

16.

turn on dads computerturn on dads computerits saturday and i wanna playsome games onlineits so funto play my favorite gameson the weekendive been waiting for this momentall weekto play some gameswhile dad is still asleeppretty much anything with stickmen and gunsyou can count me inhell, i might even play some tower defensefrom time to timeif im feeling edgy ill watch some madness combator go to newgrounds and play an inuyasha dating simanytime you see that crazy monkey tagyou know you're in for a good timei dont mind the goreor the poorly drawn anime girlsin fact, all of it seems mythical and larger than lifeand if i could stay here foreveri probably wouldno more loneliness,insecurity, deathonly good stuff

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i can tell by the look on your facei probably didnt say the right thingagaini talk for a whiletell a jokefake a smilezoom outyou're confusedbreathe intry againill just talk until i get a reactionill go until you feel alrightthen pray to god i forget what i saidfor the rest of my life

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let goyou're not a poseryou just don't knowwhat to dostoptrying so hardrelax and it'll cometo youyou don't needmuch advicejust a little bit oftime, confidencemake it alrightyou think you're punkbut it's ok to lieit's ok to not know what you wantit's only rightit'll come with timeit'll comewith timethese things passthey always doso i'll let you figure it outall on your ownbut for nowyou think you're punkit's ok to not knowwhat you wantin this timetell me if you thinkeverything is trueeverything that anyone hassaid about youdo you like what they saydoes it make you paranoiddo you wanna get the heck upand get annoyedi miss the times we hadin the old daysgamecube after schoolstaying up latewasn't that so cool

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do you rememberthe first week of septemberwhen we got to know eachother just enoughI can't believe it's so much timelike half my life has passed me by since we ditched our friends to stay out latewaiting for the night all goddamn daythen days camethat wouldn't endjust driving around til 5 amone year later I don't know how to feelshould I cry or just let it goI never wanted that week to endeven now I don't want to go homedid we make the most of itdid we make the most of itthe time, our time together is upI hope you had me and had enoughcause that's it

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like the nightwe killed the carwe pressed onwardthrough the darkuntil sunriseI can't forgetI'll miss itwhen we're just friends10 years from nowif we're still alivewe should get togetherand pretend to be fine